One Step Closer

Yesterday I celebrated a special anniversary by uploading my completed book: 'A Place Above the Stars: The Incarnating Soul' to the print on demand, that I am using to self publish my book. It finally stopped giving me error messages, my persistance paid off.

This makes me one step closer to getting it published, it doesn't matter that they're baby steps. I now have to await their approval to state that it is up to scratch to print. Then they will send me an eBook of the way it will look printed and then I give my go ahead.

I want to order one Hardback copy for myself - just to make sure I am happy with the quality of it and then off I will go to spiritual expos to sell my book in person and launch it here online. I have printed an A3 size on my home printer and am happy with the way it looks on that, so I am hopeful that is a good sign,

My physiotheropist was a bit concern about my lack of improvement in my walking over the last 2 weeks, so I explained that I lost my balance and crashed into walls before my freak accident and that the accident has really shattered my confidence with walking and I have really lost strength in my foot, leg and knee, not to mention that the swelling goes up and down everyday and I can be in the middle of walking and out of nowhere I get a sudden, sharp twinge of pain in the ball of my foot, my ankle or my knee, which then forces me to put all my weight on my crutches.

At home I am now getting around just using one crutch. The challenge set before me by my physiotheropist is to walk up and down the flight of stairs in my home, once a day, so I have been doing it twice a day. Plus sitting and standing with my arms crossed. I find this a challenge, especially on the lower seats we have. I also stretch and roll my foot on the balls reaching to tiptoes.

I decided to have a spa bath on Friday. OMG! That was a real challenge getting in and out of it all by myself. In hindsight, I shouldn't have attempted that while home alone. It has amazed me how quickly the loss of muscle, strength and coordination have disappeared and how long it is taking to rebuild them back up to where they were. I am able to walk without crutches upstairs on the soft carpet. That is comforting. My aim is to be able to confidently go to my new grand child, once they are born and pick them up and carry them, not have someone else bring my grand child to me.

We have decided to move our bedroom back up stairs next weekend and returned to the much missed waterbed and maybe I should practice getting into the spa bath with Imants near by so I can have sit down showers and return the shower chair we hired.

Even amongst these challenges including the way the blood thinning medication makes me feel. I am so grateful for this time at home, creating my book and website and reviewing how I will make money moving forward. I feel blessed to have been giving this opportunity to transform from the catapillar I was with the limitations that body gives to now being in the cocoon in the middle of a transformation into the soon to be butterfly with a clearer vision through the height of flight. I am excited by the new direction that is coming my way.

Until next time

Becci Valentine

11.09.2022